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Confessional

2012 May 23
by Jill

I was scheduled to do a Coverall post yesterday–for In Cold Blood specifically. I stared at the cover image, waiting for inspiration to come, and it didn’t. It’s yet another stark black and white color, with a bit of red, and I just couldn’t stir up the creativity or energy necessary to come up with a good post. And that’s been happening a good deal lately.

Another thing that occurred to me yesterday is that sometimes I really enjoy reading others’ blogs not only for their images or editorial views or tips, but because I like hearing about their lives. I made the decision to be purposeful about how much I share of my personal life on this blog a long time ago. I enjoy talking about the fun things I do on the weekends, or what I’ve bought recently, and of course what I’m reading or how I feel about certain books and/or writers. But, that means, if you don’t know me personally, you basically only know that I live in Brooklyn, I’m engaged, I like food, I recently bought white pants, I’m buying sunglasses soon, and I like books. That doesn’t really say a whole heck of a lot. Maybe I should say more?

These past couple months have been a little rough on me. And they seem like silly, small reasons on the scale of how awesome my life is–I love my fiance, I love my dog, I love my apartment and neighborhood, I love my friends and family, I am healthy, I have a job. Those are BIG things, and I don’t take them for granted. And yet…I’ve suffered some disappointments in my professional career over the last few months, I haven’t been writing, I’ve been trying to eat healthier foods and work out more intensely but I haven’t seen any results. All of the usual crappy things that can amount to crankiness and a general feeling of blah.

But it’s summer! And there are many, many things to look forward to and feel grateful for. This past weekend, we went to Rhode Island for my sister’s wedding. It was an absolutely fantastic wedding, from start to finish, and I had a great time. Most of all, it was so nice to see my family having such a good time, dancing and singing and just enjoying the celebration. It made me even MORE excited for my own upcoming wedding (if that’s possible!). So, that helped things, and I’m just generally trying to get a grip on other things, telling myself the problems are so small in comparison to how big the good things are.

I wanted to share a few photos from the wedding, courtesy of Jen Leigh, who was a really fantastic photographer!

The fam

Melissa and I in the front, Dennis in the back middle with his son and brother

The bride’s pretty pink shoes

Giving my toast (which went well!)

My Uncle Bill gets down on the dance floor

Yay weddings!

5 Responses Post a comment
  1. Rebekah permalink
    May 23, 2012

    Jill, you look so beautiful! And to the surprise of no one, I like the personal writing. Xo

  2. Cindie permalink
    May 23, 2012

    I second Rebekah: you look beautiful and I very much enjoy personal writing on blogs. Sometimes it gets to be too much (I mean, I don’t care how many cups of Starbucks coffee you drank today, no need to share every one in an Instagram pic), but I like getting to know the bloggers I follow a little bit.

    On a personal note, I feel very much the same about my own life right now so I appreciated your post. I feel like people are so quick to criticize with “well, you think you have it bad? What are you complaining about!” that the notion becomes internalized: because other people have it worse, we shouldn’t feel disappointed or upset about our own lives. Not true! Keeping things in perspective is key, but you’re allowed to feel stuck while still not taking the good things for granted!

  3. May 23, 2012

    It’s always tough trying to figure out exactly how much of yourself to share on the Interweb – and even if you’re pretty open, it still only is a bit of you.

    You and your sis look so pretty in those wedding pics. I love a gal who chooses to go with a short wedding dress – seems to modern and fun!

  4. Deb permalink
    May 24, 2012

    Hello Jill, thank you for posting, I really enjoy reading your thoughts, fellings and ideas.
    The wedding was perfect. Uncle Bill can get down pretty well for being in his 90’s. Your toast was wonderful (brought tears to my eyes). And the vows to each other were so loving and heart felt. they are truley a blessed couple.
    And as far as the sun glasses, I think the Tory Burch would look really nice on you.
    Love Auntie 😉

  5. May 24, 2012

    you and your sister both look stunning! i love your attitude, even when things are tough, it seems that you always look at all the good in your life!

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